And life changes in a flash. Came home Wednesday night to find Ross in a crumbled heap with his back legs immobile and scared out of his wits. The time had come. Miraculously, I had the presence of mind to get us both to the ER Vet and my BIL to meet us there.
I marvel at the words that flow in this moment. We both had been preparing and rehearsing our speeches. Secret little kitty purrs straight into my ear and o'dark thirty awakening to sneak in more snuggles. Many snuggle sessions ending with me in tears telling him how loved he is, how grateful I am that he spent his life with me and how I don't know how I will start and end my days with out his sweet presence. All of that goes out the window when the time is at hand. Tears flow endlessly, but the words dripping throughout like a mantra are all of reassurance...peace is coming, Chandler & Chuck are waiting, you've been the best kitty ever. And the most urgently needed one for us both to hear - I will be ok. I promise.
My life has been so blessed with 16.5 years entwined with a beautiful, devoted, loving, funny, stubborn and sweet, sweet little cat named Ross. A true gift of unconditional love that saved my life time and time again. I love you so pumpkin.
Postcards of my little Ross
last pictures - silly boy
Favorite spot to snuggle
Love this one
Healthier days
How I picture him now...snuggled up with his brother, my little one Chandler.
Love and miss you both!!!
I'm so sorry to read about your loss and was in the same situation back in March. There's no level of being alone like walking through the house when yours is the only heart beating there. For me the cure was to invite a little abandoned soul to fill the space with life again.
Best wishes,
Deb
Posted by: Deb | May 01, 2012 at 03:12 PM