Finally getting some traction on the goal of getting healthy. The last few weeks has seen appointments to the doctor and dentist to get the overall state of the union. And plans to strengthen my foundation are in order. And a tall order it is. The good news is that nothing's so far gone that some lifestyle changes and work won't rectify the situations. How did I become 40+ years old, feeling like I'm in the 50s?!? Life happened.
My first order of business is to reverse the last handful of years and their visible effects. Grief, care-taking and stress have added close to 30 lbs to my frame. There are so many choices I've made in a grief-stricken haze to provide comfort. To apply a bandage to stop my soul from hemorrhaging my life away. And all those actions helped me get through to where I am today - in one piece and hopeful about the next chapters of my life.
It's time to hush it inner critic, let guilt and shame go. There is no room for beating myself up and taking positive action in the same space. They'd just cancel each other out and leave exhaustion the wake. To those 30 lbs I "affectionately" have dubbed the cancer weight, thank you for providing the comfort and protection from the world at large while I loved, fought and mourned. You've helped insulate me from situations that I was not yet equipped to handle and gifted me with the time to work my emotions through to a livable balance. Your serves are no longer necessary. I'm setting you free.
And thus my first milestone is set. The aim is to be back to my wedding weight by my next anniversary - 6 months from now. Stay tuned.
Go girlie! That is a very do-able goal.
Posted by: Janie | September 28, 2009 at 12:37 PM