Chuck has been missed more so than usual lately. For no particular reason, for every reason. Finding myself stuck in limbo land. Articulating what I want for my life, the direction, the dream is leaving me speechless. I try on scenarios in my head like playing dress up. Yet, I don't see myself committing to a future path yet. Truth came out of my mouth as I glanced at our wedding picture a few days ago...I want our life back, the life I was building towards that day. My husband glowing with health and love, the home we dreamed of, the family we prayed for...a life together. The one dream that is no longer mine to have.
Grief is an endless journey. While it may play a shallow note in the symphony, as stanzas pass eventually it's haunting melody whistles through. That's just the deal.
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